Dead inside

I feel death enduring my body

My brain keep realizing

My soul dies a little more each day

My soul and I are at war.
We lost each other long time ago.
I die inside and I can’t let go

Maybe it's better to be numb
Not feel anything
Dead inside
At least there's no more pain

If my heart was still alive
It would pump more pain
Through my dead veins

Maybe it's better to be numb
Not feel anything
Dead inside
At least there's no more pain

But you don't care as I hide away.
You are the one responsible

Slowly slipping into a sleep

With no waking

Resting in peace

Everything is new

I miss you when the moon shines from the sky

I miss you when the star sparkling on the sky

I miss the things when were never been apart

Everything was gone for nothing

Everything is new

Everything is real in realistic clue

Everything are gone for nothing

But my heart missing something

At the end of the day

I’m thinking of you every single way

What will happen to you in another day?

If I didn’t see you yesterday

I really miss you like the moon at night

I really miss you like sun in my sight

I wish it’s already a holiday

So we can have time to spent for the whole day

Rebound

I still play with the ball

The weight is like a marble

Full of silent and undeniable

Just to be unbreakable

I play a lot of game

Like a burning flame

In the middle of a realm

Just to be the tough male

I’ll stop this freaking play

To unmask the face of clay

To face the validity

And I will be the casualty

It is really hard to win a game

If you are a new in their game

Just thinking of a play to win this game

I realize I just rebound on this game

Forbidden Love

Do I need to accept?

Do I need to face it?

Do I need to forget?

The romanticism of forbidden love

I adore her with my precious life

I want to kiss her while my eyes is close

I want to cuddle her in the bed of rose

I want to be with her with a hope

I will play on the time

But it is a forbidden time

Night is our starting time

Morning is end time

I taking 1 step forward

You take 2 steps backward

I will walk to the end

But I will never stop in the end

Countless nights have not slept

Boundless sorrow, they often wept

Dear skies of the bright blue

Peering eyes at the elusive you

Loving you is forbid everything

Time, dreams, slept and everywhere

Now I know that hurting me so

Our love is forbidden because I chose to love you

My Last Song

My trust is fresh

Like soul and flesh

Just need to refresh

In order compress

I just want to share to the entire being

To state the importance in the opening

But in the way of melody like singing

To mark the true meaning

Now listen to the lyrics I sing

Even the diamond ring are melting

Just snoop to the tune that swing

I will bring you into the beginning

This song I will sing

I will engrave into a bridal ring

My last song I want to sing

You and me in our wedding

I hate you

I hate you

But I really miss you

I hate you

But I really love you

Hold me tight

I’m losing my sight

Bounded by might

Surrounded by dark knight

Spear or sword fight

I will battle as unknown knight

But it just a memory sight

Because I’m losing a fight

I hate you so

But I miss you so

Don’t let me go

I will die for you

Just to let you know

Because this freaking heart,
 Love you so…

Bitter is Happy

Bitter is happy

It makes you crazy

Your specific story

Become life story

Written in the history

As part of my realistic story

With a reference of tragedy

To publish publicly

I will not stop to be happy

It will make my life steady

My bitter is happy

Because my life has a story

It begun when I’m a little baby

It shows the entire reality

To emphasize my empathy

That’s my life needs to be bubbly

Bitter is happy

Because my life is facing the veracity

To complete the entire melody

To achieve the infinite story

Let me FLY

Let me fly to the sky

Stay by my side as my guide

No matter where I go

I really need you so

I just fly to the sky

You don’t need to cry

I’ll be back to bring you the light

To make up everything after the night

Let me do the fly

Need to go for a while

To craft a star on the sky

To be your shining star on the night

I need to fly

To spread my wings very high

To see you from the sky

To guard you even I die

Let me fly

Promise I will never die

I’ll be back with empty hive

To create a full memory by you side

Deadly Love

I pretend to be happy

But my heart is deadly

Trying to burn a body

To forget my hatred memory

Graving to kill without empathy

Because my heart is very lonely

Trying to kill another destiny

To fulfil the unknown anonymity

Please! Don’t try to stop me

You will die with my history

Like a dead body

With my full of misery

I will shout in the city

Without knowing the reality

That killing me immediately

Like love it’s very deadly

False Chance

We plan for it

But you cancel it

I cannot understand the reason

But I’m still unto it

Why you make me this way

I feel there something you need to say

But I’m afraid what you say

And I’m afraid to be melancholy

I can’t understand what you want to say

Just tell me truthfully

Why you hurting my heart completely

It’s slaughtering me entirely

Let’s put on this way

Don’t make me wait intentionally

Because this chances I’m dreaming

It’s a false chance that killing me.